its ur birthday

its ur birthday and i wont greet you anymore.
its useless and you never wanted me or even cared for me.
im tired...? i dont know i want to be persistent somehow.
what if i call u later?

what if, i phone you later and greet you?

I hope you'll smile.... but i dont know.

</3 i guess i'll be forever down.

    I hope someday you'll take away all the pain inside me and change whats written behind my eyes. even though its impossible.

-----------an expression of eternal sadness that lies within my heart---------------------

    This is what i'm good at. I'm good at being down. But i don't want this feeling, even though i feel at home with darkness. i dont know, maybe darkness became my best friend, and that's why i feel at home when i'm sad.

Darkness, i dont want to see him go away. Cause i know he is my only friend.

    No, he needs to be put away. He's not a good friend for you because all he does for you is sadness.